Food for Thought

Working is draining and exhausting. When I get home after work, all I wanna do is collaspe in bed and sleep.

I am stressed. Work is stressful. When I am stressed, I start eating. I eat breakfast, I eat lunch, and I eat dinner. And in between, I keep munching on whatever is in my current stash of food in the office.

Valerie Koh, stop eating stop eating STOP EATING!!!!!





And to top it all off, I'm falling sick. Lovely, really.

That's Life, that's what all the people say...

All right all right, my junior has threatened to press the big red button of doom should I not update my blog. So here I am. But frankly, what the big red button of doom is, I have no idea. LOL.

So what's been going on in my life...? Well, I got my A' levels results, but please don't ask me about them if you don't know it already. It's depressing really.

Last Sunday was TMSCO's combined concert with Keat Hwa High School. It was fun, to be performing again. I miss the thrill, the adrenaline rush, the attack of nerves when you line up and stand behind the stage doors. Then as the backstage crew open the door and signal you to step out, gosh, it was exciting, fun and everything all at once. Then all you hear is the rush of applause from the audience and the light click of your court shoes on the parquet stage as you walk to your seat. As usual, we performed in Singapore Conference Hall. It was the biggest orchestra I've ever performed in, with 58 members in the strings section alone. The first two rows of seats had to be removed to extend the stage. I think we had more than 150 people on stage. I don't know, I didn't count. Lol.

A big thank you to all my friends who turned up for the concert! An even bigger thank you to Talz, Marc, Mingxun, Li Zhen and Shu Qi for the flowers! Even though I didn't stay long enough in the concert hall to receive the flowers from Li Zhen and Shu Qi, but thanks for the thought and gesture =D

Life's been pretty fixed and routine nowadays. Wake up, work, eat, work, go home, eat, sleep and the whole cycle repeats itself again. The thing about working in an office and having this little stash of junk food at the corner of your desk... Well, let's just say I've been just eating and working and eating and working. I'm gonna get fat. In fact, I was so worried about that, that it galvanised me into action yesterday. I went to the gym and ran for half an hour. But the price I paid? Geez, my muscles are totally screaming their protests today. Ow ow ow...

It's Here... *plays ominous music in background*

It's out and official: The release of the GCE A' Levels results will be on this Friday, 2.30pm.

When I first got this news from my friend, I was at work. And then I freaked out.

And then the smses started flooding in. Everyone was telling everyone else about the big news.

I've been in denial for the past week cos the release date wasn't confirmed. But now it is.

Frankly I don't know what kind of results I'd get. I've got friends who are excited about the big day. Friends who've been consistently getting good grades. But I haven't, and I must admit, I'm scared to death.

Even though at work, I was typing out an interview schedule, my entire mind was screaming "Ahhhhh RESULTS AHHHHH!!!" Looking back now, I always think, that I could have done more. There're always "If only"s. If only I had studied harder. If only I had woken up earlier to study. If only I had paid more attention in math lectures. If only... If only...

But all that kind of thinking is useless at this point of time. The results are out. It's fixed. No amount of thinking or worrying can change that. But despite it all, I'm still terrified. What if I can't get into the course I want? And worse still, what if I can't even get into a local university?

But it's all over now. And like Pris said, I can only ask God's grace to be with me now. It's all in God's hands.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own
understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and He will make your paths straight.
-Proverbs 3:5-6